In Honor of My Husband, Ron

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Say Ron

The time of concern is over. No longer am I asked how I am doing.
Never is the name of my partner mentioned to me.
A curtain descends. The moment has passed.
A life slips from frequent recall.
There are exceptions … close and comforting friends, sensitive and loving family.
For most, the drama is over. The spotlight is off.
Applause is silent.
But for me, the play will never end. The effects are timeless.

Say Ron to me.
On the stage of my life, he has been both lead and supporting actor.
Do not tiptoe around the greatest event of my life. Love does not die.
His name is written on my life. The sound of his voice replays within my mind.
You feel he is dead. I feel he is of the dead and still lives.
You say he was my partner. I say he is.

Say Ron to me and say Ron again. It hurts to bury his memory in silence.
What he was in the flesh has now turned to ash.
What he is in spirit, stirs within me always. He is of my past, but he is part of my present.
He is my hope for the future. You say not to remind me.
How little you understand that I cannot forget.
I would not if I could.

I forgive you, because you cannot know. I strive not to judge you, for yesterday I was like you.
I do not ask you to walk this road. The ascent is steep and the burden heavy. I walk it not by choice. I would rather walk it with him in the flesh.
I am what I have to be. What I have lost you cannot feel. What I have gained you cannot see.

Say Ron, for he is alive in me.
He and I will meet again, though in many ways we have never parted.
He and his life play light songs on my mind, sunrises and sunsets on my dreams.
He is real and he is shadow.
He was and he is. He is my partner and I love him as I always did.

Say Ron to me and say Ron again.

(This poem was rephrased and based on the book “Saying Olin to Say Goodbye” by Donald Hackett).

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Gail and I want to know "How are you doing?" We ask each other weekly "Have you heard from Lori?" We check you blog and find nothing. We are now threatening to get facebook accounts as a last resort. When you come home, let us know, we would love to see you.

Sally and Gail

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