In Honor of My Husband, Ron

Monday, August 10, 2009

Faith

I am lost in pain and despair and grief. Grief like I did not know existed. I don't know what to do to ease the pain. I try to keep myself busy and around people, but that only puts it off for a while. My thoughts always turn to Ron and it is too much to bear. I have prayed for God to ease the pain, but it has not happened. Maybe I have to go through this. Maybe there will be a good reason in the end, but right now I cannot see it. That is the definition of faith, I guess.

4 comments:

Dr. Swill said...

May I make a humble suggestion? Try not to concentrate on Ron's death and it's circumstances and work towards ALL the highlights and wonderful times you shared together. Lose the dark memories and let the light in.

I know how difficult this time is, but would he want you to wander around in pain like this? Being an oral cancer patient myself, I have two paths: I can fold into myself and ask "why?" in a deep depression. Or I can go out and live every last minute to the fullest. And when I'm gone, I don't want my loved ones to grieve, I want them to celebrate and enjoy all the good times we had!

God Bless,

Brian

Sally T Watson said...

I just finished reading the book "Salt of the Earth." Non-fiction about a women dealing with the death of her husband and her daughter. A priest told her "God doesn't let us suffer forever." Get through one day at a time. We would like to help you if you let us.

Sally

Hayley said...

Hi there,

I just wanted to leave you a comment to let you know that I am sending lots of love your way.

I have read through the whole blog tonight and I want to say how much of an amazing man Ron was - you are amazing too and...I don't really know what else to say, but I just wanted you to know that.

*Hugs hugs hugs*

Hayley

Anonymous said...

Dear,

Take one day at a time. You spent years together. It won't go away in a day...but it WILL get better. Be with friends and family, okay? Do not spend too much time alone...you will be just fine, my dear and can look back one day with all the love and less of the pain and loneliness.