In Honor of My Husband, Ron

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Update on chemo

I am the most blessed Mom on Earth. Since losing their Dad, my three kids have been there for me in every way possible. They have grieved with me, done things around the house that Ron used to take care of, done things that I didn't feel well enough to do, emotionally supported me every day--they truly gave me the reason to keep living. So now that I have cancer too, I realize that they are the reason I am still here, and why I must beat this disease.

I start chemo on Wednesday, June 30. Amanda will be there with me. I have no idea how my body will react, but I hope I can keep my mind focused on winning, like Ron always did. I know I will not face my cancer with as much strength as he did (I don't know if anyone could!), but I hope he will send me a little!

I still don't know if I am going to be in the Clinical Trial. I was supposed to hear on Friday, but I never got the call. I am hoping to find out on Monday. It doesn't really matter all that much, because chemo will start this week anyway. The only reason I am hoping to get in, is that one of the "arms" includes the targeted drug Avastin, plus the regular treatment of FOLFOX. The other arm is just FOLFOX, which is what I will receive if I am not in the trial.

I recently got the surprise of an IPad from the kids for me to take to chemo. Aren't they wonderful? And just today, Jason bought me a brand new laptop because mine was so old, so I am typing this from my new HP Pavilion. Even though it has been an awful year, I know that I am blessed...

4 comments:

Mike's wife said...

Lori,
Thank you for checking out my blog. It really is a kind of therapy. I admire your positive outlook after all you have been through first with Rona and now your own diagnosis & treatment. I also know it isn't always easy to stay positive.

We are gearing up for the start of our adventure and Monday is getting alarmingly closer, but it is also a relief that we can finally get things moving.

Best of luck with your continued treatment! Heather

ChristineB (OCF) said...

Lori, you are always in my thoughts and prayers. Im so sorry to read you are having a rough time of it. Wish there was a way to fast forward til you are heathly again. Everbody needs to vent sometimes. You are well loved and cared about.

Please remember your days as a caregiver. The calories and water intake are the same requirements. Without that higher calorie intake and the fluids you will feel worse. Dont think of this as its ok to lose weight, it means your body isnt getting what it needs to fight this with everything you have.

I have a hi protein powder another OCF member suggested to me. It dissolves into any liquid and is colorless and tasteless. I would be more than happy to send you some to try. It will help you to heal from what you are going thru. Thats the only thing I can think of to help you since I am so far away.

((((((HUGS)))))) Hope today is a better day :)

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